Is this for real? Goodbye?

If this how wonderful how gaia looks like in another side of the world, I'm more than happy to stay there as long as this lungs still able to take in oxygen into my body. I'm more afraid than ever. I definitely do not want to think about it or being too pessimistic about the current condition I'm trying not to but with all the concurrent incident that happens towards my own self that I can't deny it. I am someway living in a world that have the same synonym of "hanging by a thread".

I'm totally not ready to face that five horrific letter word that prolly the last think people would ever think of. I have lots to explore, I'm only 18 but why am i getting closer to it. Its not my mindset or mentality, i swear. Its signs, I'm not too superstitious about it but those every single signs is the same thing ever happen to my late mother.

Can I have the last wish fulfill by you please?

Oh and Ria if you ever happen to ever read this, somehow, someday, I am truly sorry for that particular incident i reacted towards you. That adolescent attitude I was upon you is totally a regretful thing I've done. I'm so sorry. Its alright if you do not want to forgive me or treat me like how you treated me, cos, I've said sorry, and I really don't like how cold we are towards each other now, truth is, I miss you. Thanks for that memories I had with you. Good Luck.

★FiR.