Chapter 11: Appearing ever again.

So many question in my mind is yet to be answered. Why? Honestly i do not know myself, i didn't intend it to be this way, some people just hate how i am, let me say this to you'all who hates me for whatever reason, be it, i didn't buy any birthday present, postponing a treat, assume too much, texting you too much that suffocate you, bothering you with small petty problems or whatever reason you can tell me, this is who I am. I make a effort to give a present, but is that really matters if you don't give a damn about me anymore? Presents are equal to nothing, whether i give or not, and the end of the day, its just a thing. But whatever. This is who I am, i have no idea why people can't accept who i am and expect me to be what they want me to be, if you are so wiser than me, congrats to you for being so much wiser but its not my time yet. You can't expect me to be as mature and oh so wise mindset like you can't I? And if this blog is too boring for you, why did you even bother to read until this line? Come on, the real reason why this website is created by me, its because, its the only thing in life i can divert my feeling into. The only thing that make a effort to hear me out without even trying.

Oh and yes, to people who actually knew of what I am really really am now and feel disgusted by it, seriously, you think i ever want to be this? Think right again, i don't. Its just a phase. So please stop being judgemental upon what I am. No one is perfect in this world, no one except god. So, let me go through this tunnel of what's not and to do in life and perhaps, it will make me a better person, honestly, I didn't expect this to come again. . These are the days that gonna make me something better. 

Argh, this is so freaking me out, i smelt something that's gotta to do with death, from just now.

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