Is it me? Or are you not taking me seriously? :(

Just a thought of the insomnia mode i've been having for the past few days, plus this unpredictable stomach pain i've had for ages. Apparently, i'm not in the best mood to even study nor anything related to education, this includes, school.

Undeniably, I've to say that I'd always been down with post-bad luck symptoms that totally make a great toll at the end. Its utterly indecisively interesting, in a way that it gave me hopes one second and the another, it just threw me down , hitting the floor real hard.

Why does this faith always keep happening? I'm still finding the perfect answer, wait, there isn't any i guess.

Friends/peers, whatever you known the term as, has always been a good source of whining, communicate, have fun with, but yet again, this is just as same as a country having to expose the most powerful weapon ever, nuclear, or in this oxygen converting to blood humankind, trust.
They might just change in a spilt second, even in the most sincere way or not, it hurts you so badly to see all this happening to yourself when you know, you did the very best out of yourself to be the best person you can be to a friend. Nor feelings or initiative are converted to anyone you hope they will. Its heart breaking, literally to see, they take it as a joke, i had enough, seriously, if you keep having that joke or juvenile mindset of me being close to just one person, think again, why did I stay put to just one person? Cos probably, you kept joking around and don't take me seriously. I'm deeply disappointed.

Just spare me the details, cos i know you don't even bother to, i should have be in NS by now, is this a mistake ? or am I just growing up to be a much better person? You decide.

A, all i need is just a listening ear from you, not being with you, please, understand.

F a y.