Is this a jinx?

I can't be living in the world of contradiction and intimidating proposal lifestyle.

The procrastination of everything is just too much for me to handle. By fact is, reality stays but I can't take how oblivious the surrounding is, gestures and indecent waves of the your ocean is already signs of what's the next step I'm gonna do. Its hard and you know that don't you but why is this repeating when you know I already told you, I do not want it to happen again.

Guess my instinct is right, I may be put into a spell by some witches when I was small to have this jinx stuck in me, scarifies for others but the last person i would ever think of, is me.

I don't want another truth, it may be just another lie, so just lie to me.

★FiR.