Maybe its true ..

.. and yes, the above explains everything - maybe its true, i'm caught up on you ..

F a y.

U2!

New hair, shave the inside, the outside is layered, its so awesome! Love it :D

Moving on, i'm looking forward to go school tomorrow - Greenview Secondary School jack! LOL. I don't know what to blog man! okay go, i want to sleep the night away...

.. this Jay Sean, Maybe Remix is r-r-rocking my ass off,

heard it at Springfield and it caught up in my head! :)

F a y.

.. this is it..

Screw you.

Good enough.

I think being as honest now is better than hiding behind a bush with all the denials being as a facade to cover the truth. .

It just shows everything, its not only what'd happen recently, i came to realize my girls close friends are better than anything else, at least this girls understands me best, I can't understand why they have to be egoistic and can't set the priority straight. Lots and more excuses are up and then the silent killer treatment is then shown with being too oblivion about it. Like erm, it goes like this, "eh let's go out together man, but sorry , i won't be talking to you .." . Then why in the first place you tell me, "lets go out together..", that implies more on a fact that need not to be explain here, you get the drift right?

*they aren't refering to the girls :D

I just can't understand it, am I suppose to be saying FML or this is the time that shows that I can't be bothered anymore, soon enough I'll be immune, or wait, it doesn't really matter, cos you have plenty friends .. you don't lose anything if anything occurs, hmm ..

F a y.

I can't be bothered much, wasted.

I've decided to just raise the white flag to you, cos i don't find any purpose at all on being too nice and my perceptive of simpatico of you was utterly wrong. .

Moving on, I saw someone today, that smile of yours to me and the way you say my name just bring back memories of how close you are to me once ago, glad you'd acknowledge me :)

Talking to Lionel up to dawn was much amazing that anything else of my activity today. Walk up to 4 km till Pasir Ris and has sugar roll and butter croissant for "half-way" point , lol, thanks dude :)

Much much random note; this are my two awesome role model cum Idol for this year, especially Farhan Sha, look at his style, no offence, but I think he's like the decent yet good looking and knows what fashion sense is, for a Malay. :) I totally wanna "be" like him(?) . .

F a y.

(09)

Mixed feelings all rounded in one atmosphere, this is what i'm introvert trying to feel; trying.

F a y.

Whatever.

Just so you know, i know you won't even crack this post that its directly pointing to you, ever since we got closer as friends, you never show the slight appreciation to me, now i'm thinking are you just one of those typical people making use of my over kindness to you? Cos I sacrifices and did quite alot of things that you don't see anything of it as a thing that impress you . .

I think I should just be an ordinary person to you.

.. things will definitely change now, starting now, will be seen, Friday, that's if i'm going.

(Didn't mention names here, if you think its you, then its you, you're all smart enough to know yourself better right?)

F a y.

To hell with it, but i miss you.

Things are getting more complex, without getting the facts justify, things already change within my soul reaching for air. Its nothing compare to what'd happen before that day happened.

Truth is, I appreciated you more than that, and I miss the old you, I just miss you too much F. They say sometimes things are directly in front of you yet you keeps finding it, i think you were like the best ever. . I'm so sorry, i will remember you always.

School and current situations just make a big toll on me, i am feeling too disgruntled to even think straight and make any drastic changes, its too soon to even make any decisions.

F a y.

Ah yeah right..

If that above isn't hot, i don't know what is, that's like super gorgeous effing hot ah!

.. wow, good fir, its the fasting month and you're looking at girls, okay okay lah, i look at guys now, hmpf. .

OMG, look at that! No, not the guy, the jacket! ahhh! ASOS is so on my list for this 28th shopping spree. :)

F a y.

Yet again.

.. they say pictures paints a thousand words, well, smart enough, decipher the above . .

(i need it badly, if you able to depicts the above)

its an explicate of what I'm really feeling now, either apprehensive or jaded.

Its the month of purity of sins, just do whatever you feel like doing, like I said, you leave me cluelessly unexplained with that ignorance, just go ahead, when this battle happens, I'm always the one getting punch inexplicably, always me. . even when I'm not wrong, its still me, perfect example, this.

F a y.

At least i'm smiling ..

.. there's many reason why I have few friends, and one of them is just because, they don't come and go, we get into a battle, we fight it, what doesn't kill us, make us stronger, from nothing, to something, now to the little things in life, its friends that bring us stronger. . one of it, well, nonetheless, its her, the one that had always try to make the slightest smile on my face even when i don't feel like it, like what i ever wrote to her once on our notes, you're the best I ever had. .

xo, Ria .

F a y.

Can't help it.

.. that's what currently being played on my iTunes/iPod over and over again, can't help it but to dance to the beat , in anyways, its a good weather to just snuzzle into the comforters but yet again, its a Sunday, i'm at home, plus its fasting month, hahahah, i'm suppose to be doing good deeds, but listening to club songs, well, there's no harm right? Hmmm .. :P

Second redundant post of the day . .

F a y.

Sellout.

First day of Ramadan was just yesterday but couldn't break-fast at home due to some reasons, I'm using today a good opportunity to just stick my ass at home to enjoy a good decent meal with daddy, brother and spirit of mum? :)

Yesterday impromptu chill out session with buddy was awesome, decent amazing pictures was the reward at the end of the day. (: Thanks budd (;

F a y.

Where?

yes, where do I actually do begin? really. . . where?

F a y.

Hola.

.. not that inside like how you decipher it, heh . Be optimistic people (;

F a y.

School like never before.

(just take a look at my room's re-created wall, i'm lovin it)

Floorball and Frisbee in school was a final time before the month of enduring hunger, thirst and lust starts. It was amazingly fun, what's new right? Fir loves sports now? Hmmmm ... Yet again, you'd know? My team wins both games during Sport's and Wellness ..

Monday lesson is cancel due to because, the class has a height elements bonding, i'm looking forward to that, they say; the only way to overcome your fears is face your fears, well, something new again? Fir doing all in takes to overcome his fears . . :)

I came to realize that, if every second i'm accompanied in school with the classmates being around me, makes me less worried on anything that bothers me when i'm alone, I decided to just not to bother about my shallow mindset anymore whenever i'm in school. Just can't afford to be weak as i was last year, the theory is simple, can't handle me, leave, can't understand me, then don't, can't stay long with me, then find someone new, can't appreciate me, then just don't, the door is open always, just leave before it makes a toll on me. Please. .

Why do we always hurt the people we love?

P/S: You've been a good friend to me, even tho its a short period of time knowing each other, I just realized how much you meant to me, just so you know, I appreciate you so much . .

F a y.

awwww..

I received a e-mail from somebody that's the least I expect from, I thought it would be an ordianry chain e-mail i've often gets from random contacts from Windows Live, but you'd know(?) this someone e-mail this, and obviously you guys should know, you can't forward an e-mail to all your contacts, you need to choose, guess why, i saw, my e-mail was the first in line with this attachment of words in the e-mail, awwwww much? :)

TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING

THROUGH THE DESERT .

DURING SOME POINT OF THE

JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN

ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND

SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE

IN THE FACE

THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED
WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT
SAYING ANYTHING,
WROTE IN THE SAND ,
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE .

THEY KEPT ON WALKING,
UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,
WHERE THEY DECIDED
TO TAKE A BATH .

THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN
SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE
MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,
BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM
THE NEAR DROWNING,
HE WROTE ON A STONE:

'TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SAVED MY LIFE'

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED
AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND
ASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU,
YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,
YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'

THE FRIEND REPLIED
'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US
WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN
IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF
FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.

BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES
SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,
WE M UST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE
WHERE NO WIND
CAN EVER ERASE IT'

LEARN TO WRITE
YOUR HURTS IN
THE SAND AND TO
CARVE YOUR
BENEFITS IN STONE.

THEY SAY IT TAKES A
MINUTE TO FIND A SPECIAL
PERSON,
AN HOUR TO
APPRECIATE THEM,
A DAY
TO LOVE THEM,
BUT THEN ,

AN ENTIRE LIFE
TO FORGET THEM..

SEND THIS TO
THE PEOPLE YOU'LL NEVER
FORGET.

I JUST DID.

DO NOT VALUE THE THINGS
YOU HAVE IN YOUR LIFE, BUT VALUE
WHO YOU HAVE IN YOUR LIFE!

AND IF I HAPPEN TO GET IT BACK,
THEN I KNOW MY PLACE IN YOUR LIFE

'Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.'

F a y.

Forte.

.. lol, did you just see that too or am I just pretend not to? Its Pull and Bear who's following me, and couple of people whom I think still wants to bother about my life when history is already created, seriously, just myot (mind your own tweet) okay? :)

F a y.

Huha..

Infatuations and phase of life i'm leading myself to a road i've never before been.

.. just so you know, i'll fight for you .

F a y.

I didn't mean..

If that happens, just please, don't just walk out the door like that, you've been the best. I swear.

*that (what facts that bitch will tell you or stuffs that not suppose to happen)

F a y.

Fuck you ah !

Nonetheless, is a one hell of appreciation , just that what'd happen after that just mother fucker spoils it. Fuck you really, go get someone your own league to be shot with cupid arrow, fuck it okay. Despo! Fuck yourself lah.

Seriously, one, the milk already spilt out, next is, you enjoy huh seeing me losing a friend soon? I don't know what's your real intentions ah. Serious. I think telling you the secret was a big mistake.


Read: Big Mistake , I rest my case. Stop fucking ignoring me ah, its your fault.

F a y.

Google Map.

Thursday night and Friday dawn with buddy, Billy. Henderson Waves cool breeze was the shit.

Oh, Billy, remember what shall we never do next time? Not forgetting to buy drinks before we go up, or and sell 2 sticks of ciggeratte for 5 bucks? Hahahaha!

Thanks for a great company.

Tomorrow's appreciation night, here I am working my ass off for the A4's video .

F a y.

There's no better way to spent the thursday morning, then, well, Starbucks of course. .
Yes, as this is wrote down, I'm at RC 24/7 Starbucks, i swear , its super slacking, I wish to be attach here, I swear.

Alright, morning earthlings (:

F a y.

Turth is..

Oh and I know I shouldn't have done this, but it takes a true men to confess what he really feels to a girl, this is for you . .

Dahlia Putri. .

I had always think you're beautiful in your tudung and truth is, you're like a caramel , super sweet smile and your eyes are like sparkles from the universe . .

. .there you go, my crush , my one and only crush . .

F a y.

As i thought?

If you're the one then why does my soul feel glad?

I don't wanna run away but i can't take it, I don't understand ;

If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?

Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right;

And though I can't be with you tonight

And though my heart is by your side . .

You give me butterflies back again in my life, I hope you feel the same?

F a y.

NDP was awesome, never been better than the actual day of course.

I must say, is it a jinx that stuck of me being too nice? Why are you all always taking advantage of me? I was amiable to you, that is what i got from you?

Easy said than done, you're just like any other of them . .

Oh and I wasted the night out . Hah, what's new right? Typical people.

F a y.

I hang up the phone tonight, something happen for the first time.

Its just awesomely perfect, a perfect weekend, a perfect happiness, I just hope it last every second, with a amazing starlight shooting up above the sky . .

Tomorrow is the NDP'2009, i waited, practice, and endure months for this day, have a good long weekend people (:

F a y.

NDP 2009.

Sneak Peak of my performance during NDP'2009.

Chapter 9: Heartland, the song is really heart-warming, i swear, if you were there, the feeling is way amazing. (: Sneak Peak of the song? Click Here.

From the TV, you will see spectators waving their heart-shape torch lights left and right, left and right.

Motivators are part of making this look good on TV (:

This is home truly, where i know i must be . .

F a y.

There's lots to explore if you ain't know me.

The excitement you'll feel upon having butterflies its uber amazing, nothing compare to what you will feel, hahaha, if only, if only that fireworks in me could explode right out. .

A perfect weekend, not impromptu, i ain't just expecting anything either, Sentosa with the LD and the nation's 44th Birthday celebration, the finale, I'm missing it already . . :)

F a y.

Boom Boom Hump!

UP with Billy. Nonetheless, the impromptu day always turn out awesome. .

. . it was that close to me not heading home, but i just had to dread myself here on the bed with the snuzzy comforters and awesome 18 degrees cooler breezing tru my body . .

:)

F a y.

What's a husla. .

Yesterday I just have to wake up late don't I? Argh! I hate waking up late and skipping lesson, I need to S-T-O-P this bad habit, oh Fir, please wake up, end elective exams are just around the corner, wake up and focus!



A meet up with the awesomess bimbotic and freaking tall GORGEOUS girl yesterday for a short meet up and her shopping for that awesome tall heels, thereafter for Starbucks and as per usual, camwhores ..

Guess what? Both of us were approach by some modelling agency asking whether we are interested to be a freelance model, ahahha, how new is that? Me? *burst out laughing* . .

Alright, now , back to article writing, damn complicating can? Urgh. .
F a y.

Rationally untrue about the lush, crush, oh yes. . .

I don't like it when i keep receiving inbox messages from varies club inviting me to their parties, no, i don't want to attend, and no, i'm not a frequent clubber person okay , its getting on my nerves, just barely waiting to be explode. .

. . the class had a excursion, a really monotonous one in fact, a trip to ADM Logistic warehouse, tell me how much entertaining is that?

I got a confession, you'd know(?), i'm slowly becoming a bed ridden person soon, why, once i got home from anywhere in mind, i will be stucked here , on my new comfy bed with Little Jay and Tyler beside me all the way till i fall asleep, ah, what an idiot, i swear . .

Lighter note? Friday closing with Ashikin! Oh yes yes, i'm dying to have shift with her :)

F a y.

That linger is just a word, fact reality, its _____ .

What makes me linger more on you is that, this is a crush & it ain't going away . . shall not . .

Please say yes to what i'm asking soon . . :|

F a y.

What's there is there, stop being a . .

I don't wanna give a damn about your oh-so-english-awesome-power comments on my recent status, fact that I ain't close to you anymore, and I can't be bothered either, hah, to think of it, i shouldn't have sold my camera and being too nice. . its typical isn't it? Being too nice, people tend to take advantage of us, haha, I ditto what Billy told me yesterday . .

F a y.

I just wanna be with you . .

I have no idea why that thoughts of you kept flying in and out of the confuse mind. I guess, the feelings is getting too deepen, I swear , i swear, the thoughts of you makes me happier than never before . .

. . this is for you . .

You're staring me down, a glance makes me weak

eyes for striking

Now I'm twisting up when I'm twisted with you

brush so lightly

F a y.