Hand's up~

Tell me about styles while you don't even can calibrate the real definition nor can you show. So stop trying too hard boy, you ain't fit to be the next whatever wannabe, never was, never will.

Apparently, no offence whatsoever, the cluster i have now for NDP is kind of abit too kiddy in the sense of character wise, literally, i have no idea why they have to act that way, maybe in terms of age, they need to mature fast, but yet again, its just temporary, who am i to judge? I ain't perfect either . . starting 20th June, platform CR is already schedule all the way till the 9th August. I get a bird eye view of everything, from the show to the segment to the fireworks! Oh just for the record, i've finally progress this year's motivators dance choreography steps, that actually has 7 different steps that are crazily OMGEE! Thank god, Shikin and Sheha has been a great kecho-ness bunch to laugh with. . (:

So earlier today, i had an Addidas Sundown Walkathon (unofficial). My starting line was at Pasir Ris MRT all the way to Changi, it seems like near by any other transport, try walking, its freaking crazily far. I'm so gonna join next year's Addidas 42KM marathon, its seriously shit fun! For now, Standard Chartered'09 are on my list.

Alright, need to get some rest before gym and swimming later. Bye.

F a y.

Help , bring back the smile.

There's some things we don't talk about 
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

Oh well, this facade smile won't be long, cos everything you see from me isn't what you get.

Its all fake for now, only some people know what i'm really going tru and what do i need most.

This is contradicting towards you A, but i think i need you, i don't know why, i miss your presence around me, cuddling me, love me for who i am.

And D, i might not say this ever before, but you've been the greatest regularly st most concern classmates i ever have, i promise i won't disappoint you by attending school and doing the roleplay perfectly. (: Thanks again . .

Just need to party soon, read: party, not drink. There's a different.

Happiness isn't a word in my dictionary anymore, if there's a word, i guess its, repent, for good.

F  a y.

Random.

Its been already few times i've skip lessons and school, not to mention, its only few weeks of school. Urgh, damn, what's wrong with me? Can't i just maintain that discipline of attending school regularly? I need to!

F a y.

Yeah.

Eversince Little Jay's been awesomely great to me with his features, Skyping has been my new form of MSN Live. So today was Zuhairee, hahaha, its funny we both are amazed by its features and all, and its a new form of free calls . Anyways, here's a big shoutout to the great brother of mine, Happy 19th BIRTHDAY my brother (*insertZuzaccent*) ! You've been a great friend all this while, its seems like i've been contacting you much more often than anyone else huh? Oh wells, enjoy your day yeah(!) Can't wait for Saturday! Yet again, the only planned thing was to meet, impromptu plans will be made there for sure once i meet him.

Argh, i'm close to just give up on something, serious. Just please spare me some hope.

F a y.

"Woah hahaha"

Peace to Lyson for having that sweet gestures of like you-know-what. Heh :p Hope I can bumb into you soon, again (:

" *hit shoulder accidentally* "

L: "Sorry, really really sorry dude . ."
F:*smile* "Its okay. . "
L:*look one kind at my eyes* " Hmm, are you Fir . . ? *insertname*'s friend? "
F: *grining forehead* Erm, yes, you are.. . .? Oh! Lyson! Hahaha, hello.. "

*continued* cute :D

Anyhoos, impromptu expectations are kicking in very well and i can't expect much, haha, how ironic. Daphne, thanks for being very concern, really, it means alot to me. Thanks for asking me alot of times on being very concern. (:

F a y.

VIRTUALs.

The Sims 3 is so on my next month moolah spending list. Right after that Tyler will be on my hands and soon, iTunes store with downloaded apps are my portable entertainment(!) Man, can't wait for that to happen! But right now, Little Jay has impress me alot with his awesome graphics and function.

I have no idea what shall i engraved on my itouch & Mac. . .

F a y.

Make it last while.

So every now and then i get MISC mails from the lecturers itself, and they wouldn't tell us when and where and what the online home assignements are, bummer much?

For example, today is Monday, tutorials only starts at 2pm for my class; soon after i went online and check my mails, this is what i received;

"Hi,

Please go through the attached past year paper (Feb 2008 - CA1)for BEV for tomorrow and wed's lesson. Try and do this without looking at your textbook.

For section B:-

1A , 1C, 1D, 1F, 1H are from the text book

1(B), 1(E), 1(G), 1I are from the case study

Regards,

Yeow Ghim Cheong, Integrated Logistic Management . ."

And the attachment is in PDF format, okay, tell me how in the world i'm suppose to edit that? Oh wells, this is a super redundant post.

Chiao.

Please spare me the moments, i need you but not now, i'm ain't a good hearing aid for you A. Please, just leave if you need to.. 

F a y.

Pinkdot.sg

I am not being anything nor am i trying to be, just a random topic, you know recently there's a Saturday where everyone is wearing pink(?) to support the freedom of love? Yeah, those BGL society in Singapore. Well, i guess its time Singaporean should stop being stereotype, cos at the end of the day, this people are just still humans, they might be different in terms of who they are with and what they do, but they do no harm to us, in one way or another, religion wise, yes, its a big sin, but that doesn't mean we need to brush them away according to what most citizens here thinks, they accept themselves to who they are and what they are. In denial or not, that's a choice they have to choose, but as for us, at least give the mercy not to judge nor be a typical narrow minded society.

Choose Love, Not Abuse.

& A, please, just leave me alone for now, i ruined my dignity and pride making a scene that day, and i'll bet most of them who saw me that day, knows what i'm talking about, but urgh, fuck , i don't give a damn, i'm not being in denial and yeah, A was once mine . . problem with that?

& yes, isn't it obvious much? I'm _.

F a y.

Ranting and Dedicated.

Too much to handle, too little time too many things to handle. If there's a day that has 30 hours, i guess it will be awesomely perfect. Yesterday's NDP dance choreography was much entertaining but yet again, hard to remember it, oh wells, enough about NDP, shall just wait for the live performance on 9th August and you guys get what i meant.

I got work tomorrow and today and it feels like better off i don't even work at all, cos being a barista sucks at times. . and this are the times that i'm not even committed to do anything at all. Just study, and work hard. Exams coming and i need the retail therapy much too!

F a y.

Impromptu = Awesome!

School meet-ups with my twin sister, Killa and another meet-ups with Ama and Dan together with Farna. Awesome (: Impromptu meetings are incredible. 

Much more pictures and videos can be seen more on Facebook, on my account . . 

Interact Club from 8 - 9.30 am, NDP training from 9.30 - 1pm, Cluster NDP outing from 1- 8 perhaps? Damn!

F a y.

Random!

Yeah, just like the picture; FUCK YOU!

F a y.

I need you.

Little Jay's first screenshot (:

F a y.

Jam and Hop all the way!

Firstly, this is the officially the first time of the week, i'm using my desktop to update my diary, hahaha, i mustn't get addicted to Little Jay, he's too addictive for me, soon, his brother Tyler(iTouch) gonna be the next love for me, Oh man, Apple gadgets are so addictive :p

I'm so busy with school work, projects, CCA, rehersals and more briefing, man, never knew, school is so hectic for first year students.

I need to continue revising, adios.

Oh and Kris;

Congrats(!) Told ya he's gonna win!

F a y.

Xoxo, GG.

Having someone you've been waiting for to say back that four syllabus sentence structure, and there you have it, a perfect ending just like cinderella meeting the prince.
Like they said, gossips and secrets are not safe until you ensure the secret isn't worth to be secret. Cos when they aren't, they will just be a secret for merely 5 seconds.

Be afraid of what and who will know your deepest darkest secret, cos yet again, you will never know , it may just be . .

I hate flu, they literally make me really weak.

F a y.

Ahhhh! Oh my god~!

The second day being 19th is really awesomely embarrassing, thank god, Daphne is there to somewhat cover the oh-my-god-to-the-max redness on my face when this happens;

Situation 1; Afiq is wearing the school's red polo tee, he's tall and has short has.

Situation 2; This student whom was tall too and was wearing the same red polo tee stands besides the lift, and we exchange randoms stares. 

Embarrassing moments: He entered the lift, standing right besides me, mentally, from the sides, he looks like Afiq, i swear! So i was wondering since when Afiq wores a Addidas Watch, so i took his hand, and literally hold his hand and look at the watch, OH MY GOD, it was him and NOT Afiq, i burst out laughing together with some of my course mates and he look at me and laugh too! I swear he might thinks i'm some kind of physcotic guy or gay. Hahahahha! Oh my god!

I swear i can't get over it man, its super embarrassing, it stuck on my head, but yeah, at the same time, its utterly humorous to even think about it. I swear i won't take the lift ever again! :P

G, thanks for everything, you know i love you and i will stick with you k b? (:

F a y.

Ola.

Hola, i'm quite content with whatever i have now, especially, officially updating this blog on my bed with Little Jay on top of me, awww, baby, more please.. hahaha :P

The sweetest gesture ever, the class gave me a card with wishes of birthday in it, awww, sweet or what? Thanks UL0904D, i love each of you all (:

Next a great mansion place to just chill out till midnight, having on the water bed playing games, G.B, you know i've been missing out this two years, and i want is to be close with you again. Promise me okay what you told me, i love you my friend (:

Its closing to 3 am, and i'm half-dead, like a walking zombie.

F a y.

H.B.T.ME!!!

Hey hey hey, its my birthday, put the hands up! Hola! A big thank you to Facebook, beloved friends and cousins whom wishes me. (:

The day started out unplanned with my couldn't make it and i was quite disappointed, but the next surprise was that Zuz came down earlier, we headed to WS for some catch up and was next surprise with Heikal's news of he's driving me to places i want to go.. (: (: We headed to all over the place in Singapore, well not all, but mostly all i had plenty of fun and the very last moment of being 18 before finally being 19! Hahahaha. I literally had all the fun with Daphne, Yani, Zuhairee, Sakinah and Heikal. Hahaha, daphne, michelle, aveline, thanks for the cake from Awfully Chocolate (: Super sweet, and Daphne, thanks for really everything! I read your blog's post and i was really touched on your 8th May post. Thanks for being a good listener and glad you had fun with my friends just now (:

To my beloved three friends, Apen, Zuh and Kel, thanks for the awesomely good time ! I enjoy every second of it! :D And i love all of you.

Hahaha, i received a Birthday wishes, hugs and a kiss(!) :D Thanks G.B. (: I miss you (:

Happy birthday to me, oh shit, i have to bring extra clothes, oh man. (:

F a y.

Part I.

NEL, Clark Quay, Hooters for dinner, Burburn, Zirca/Rebel, dance the night out, it was unexplainable, yet again, the aftermath wasn't great, got to know alot of new people in there, plus thanks to our regular PW customer, he recognises me while i don't, hahaha, Elwyn, let her in for free, a friendly guy indeed, he usually orders a Caramel Machiato and i didn't know most of the time he was the one, hahaha, he look different doh.

But anyways, Ana bake me 9 cupcakes with white frosting, awww, thanks babe (: It was deliciously awesome! Thanks Starbucks Kallang mates, it was really nice of you all to go in the club and party and having people staring at me when 50 Cents, In Da Club played on the song list, and when it was the first part, "Go shorty, its your birthday!" , Hahahha, it was much awesome then anything else.

The funniest part of all, when i approach a stranger to take a picture of us, he was much excite on taking it for us, then after he took it, he join us, hahahaha, well, pictures be up once i can get all the pictures, uploaded to my Macbook.

What's going on the floor? I love this record baby, but i can't think straight anymore.

F a y.

Acer sucks!

Alright, meet my new boyfriend, his name is Little Jay, and he's going to be attach with me soon (:



Oh man, i can't wait to make love with you :p. Hahaha, fuck it lah, yes, i can't wait for my Macbook! Mr delivery guy, please send soon! I ditch Acer for this shit! Hehehe!

F a y.

Hold back.

The surrealism of the conceit decision that leads to this down and drag out situation just brings me to nowhere right now, I'm even too close to that peak of mind where i'm just going to shut everything off, like i know i do not what that to happen, who would right?

Gimme a break, for this substantially in juvenile complications that supposedly not needed to be up.

Tutorials starts at 9(!) & tell me what am i still up being here . . ?
Oh yes, new skin, again.

F a y.

My milkshake is better than yours.

Awesome shits from a manual colour camera, films are used instead of memory card, woah.

Oh yeah, i already send out a notebook order for a Acer, yes, not Macbook, since i don't think it will be a good use for now, since Macbook is more for the designs students, and maybe perhaps, in a few years time i guess. But for now, I'll be thankful with my Acer. Its a new edition for this year, so its a good investment i guess. Can two weeks come any sooner? I want it so badly, well i guess I'll just wait for it to be delivered then :(

Oh its 13th of may already? 5 more days to yeah, my big nineteen, well not that I'm looking forward to it, but yeah, i guess, being nineteen is nothing special.

I have tons of projects to be done, and(!) i have a Orientation camp on Friday which i plan to ditch, oh boy, bad boy. . .

F a y.

Stand up for us;

And this are the pictures of the Graduation from Nitec in Business Service Skills (Office) ;







(pardon the quality, its snap from the original copy, so yeah, hence, this)

Will always be remembered, UO0804R, the Gila-ians,
(haha, mcm paham, yang lain padahal belum graduate including me, hahaha!)

F a y.

Independent oceans.

School's been hectic for me with much more activities added to my already-much-pack days hours of school projects, quizzes, extra tutorials and right now, Co-curriculum activities being added. But its much of more of putting that extra smile on my face rather than influencing myself with whatever stuffs need not to be done. I might want to take a break from the part time work too, i guess, i need to be focus on scoring that A's rather than that money.

Logistic Management & Supply Chain Management module has already come out with a first year project, which makes me, yes, the leader, how much reluctant i want to be, well, this is the only time i can manage and show my leadership skills, not to mention, what a surprise group members i have now. I guess, that A's are on it way too, with this determination and perseverance and confidence, it wouldn't be much of a problem.

Oh well, its so much of a random topic now, i'm sending out the order for a notebook, but yet again, i have not even decide, a Macbook or a Acer Aspire 4937G-87432Mn, well, firstly thank dad for having my study aid complete, finally my own personal laptop. But bummer, the notebook only going to be on my hand in two weeks time.

Alright, i need to get back to the progress report, being a leader is much tougher that i thought.

A qoute from GG, S2E24;

No one has all the answer, and sometimes the best we can do is just apologise, and let the past be the past. Other times, we need to look to the future, and know even if we think we've seen it all, life can still surprise us, and we can still surprise our self. . .

F a y.

I love you dad.

Well, my late mother passed away on the month of April and i wouldn't want to experience my dad's on the month of May, that will be the most horrific nightmare or shall i call it reality ever in my life, i swear, i will kill myself soon after hearing my dad has pass on.

Here's the related explanation to the above sentence, my dad is working as a taxi driver at night, as most or some of you may know, yesterday while i was working, i sure know something wasn;t right with my eyes kept on twitching like no one's business, but that linger me on to just continue doing my work. Soon after i reached home, a loud knock on my window shouting my brother's name, soon after that, i came opening the front door, and i was surprise to see my dad in the most exhausted/drained out condition, i immediately ask why, he then said this, " i was robbed .. " in malay of course. My heart skip a beat and i open the gate, he then told me everything. He was robbed by a BLOODY MALAY FUCKER CHIBAI NABEY MAK KAU SUNDAL SIAL guy who pointed a sharp knife and his throat, thank god he advoid it, if not, he would have been killed. This bloody PUKIMAK KAU ANAK SUNDAL stole my dad's phone, wallet, cash total up to $200 and everything he has. But all that doesn't matter, cos i was really literally thankful to Allah, for letting me have this chance to appreciate my father more. I thankful, i heard this incident from him and not the policeman, and soon then, saying my father's dead or something, which obviously i didn't want that to happen. Right now, having to know he's still here for the family, it only means one thing, god is giving me this chance to appreciate him more, i have never love him more than my mum, but right now, i do more than anyone in this world.

Syukur Alhamdulilah, Ya allah, selamatkanlah ayahku yang satu ini apabila dia sedang berkerja, dan hapuskan gangguan syaitan yang ada sekeliling hamba-hambamu itu. Hanya Engkau saja ku berdoa untuk memberi balasan yang bertimpa kepada hambamu yang hampir membunuh ayahku kerana godaan syaitan dan berikanlahnya balasan dan dolat yang setimpa. Ya allah, murakanlah rezeki ayahku. Amin.

To that culprit, i swear if i ever found out who you are, your generation is never gonna be in peace, i promise you that. You son of a bitch!

I love you dad, more than anything now.

F a y.

Just need to do this~!

I guess so too that it went over the line, and yes, i finally come to senses, that I'm too much over materialistic, its way too much. Urgh, i hate how i splurge on things i want and not need, finally next month, someone is getting hold of my pay, and that limits my spending on things i don't even need and wasting it on un-knowledgeable stuffs. I promise I am gonna change.

Work's been pretty hectic, too much work, i hate work now. :P

Great, quizzes and progress test are just way around the corner, i'm yet to even revise.

F a y.

Awesomneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I've finally got what i want , and i guess its enough for this month, damn, its all gone.

I've also thought much on what shall i buy next on my list, iPod Touch, using my bursary money (:

I'm so close to having that dream wardrobe I've been wanting to have, ah yes, I'm typically too materialistic on fashion, well, its my life and it makes me happy and i use my hard paid work cash, not my father's money nor anyone's else. So if you want to judge, please get the facts right, and for the record, i don't blog in detail on what brands so and so like anyone else, i know my limits, and I'm quite content with having retail therapy every month, the wardrobe needs a bigger space now (:

Finally graduated, oh, and bummer, I'm still schooling, how ironic.

Schedule check: Rebellion, every Thursday, Zirca.
Sounds good? Well, the gila-ians gang might be dropping by next Thurs with a car! (:

F a y.

Dead.

Graduation wardrobe malfunction(!!)

The headlines says it all, i got less than like 6 hours to graduation and i have no idea what to wear, i have no shoes, no perfect belt, omg, i'm so dead.

at least this gave me some moral support;

Thanks mimi! sayang kau! Friday swimming and gym! (:

F a y.

If this is it, you get back what you really want to..

The Wrapth of Con is much more drama than any episodes so far, more twist and turn to what's life can bitch for us. On the much same note, I've finally realize, a part from being rejected, its much more of a recovery being a hard headed manipulating jerk to be a devil in disguise.

Oh well, the only reason things are not what it suppose to be just leads to one question, did love make it a scarifies or did me do it in the name of love? What matters most is, I'm sure that will last pretty well for that unrealistic love. I thought i could make what you are and what you were born to do, the real you.

You'll just get tangles by your own lies, and the more you twist, the tighter the trap. Until you get lock to your own making, beware of what you never though people knew. (:

You get older, wiser, smarter? Well, that's so cliche, i think its a season of you get older, malicious and detrimental, hypothetically, you've become a double jerk you used to be. . . awww, too bad..

Bring it on. .

On and by the way, Resident Evil isn't just a game, this article below from BBC News;

Read Carefully;

There has been a small outbreak of “zombism” in London due to mutation of the H1N1 virus into new strain: H1Z1.

Similar to a scare originally found in Cambodia back in 2005, victims of a new strain of the swine flu virus H1N1 have been reported in London.

After death, this virus is able to restart the heart of it’s victim for up to two hours after the initial demise of the person where the individual behaves in extremely violent ways from what is believe to be a combination of brain damage and a chemical released into blood during “resurrection.”

The World Health Organization (WHO) has raised the alert to phase six, its highest level, and advised governments to activate pandemic contingency plans.

In Mexico, the epicentre of the outbreak, President Felipe Calderon urged people to stay at home over the next five days.

Now this; READ(!!)

In the latest developments:

• The Netherlands confirms its first case of zombie swine flu, in a three-year-old boy recently returned from Mexico. After passing away early this morning, he rose from the dead and lunged at his mother.

F a y.

Desires and Lust.

My wildest craziest severest idea was to get 8 tops from Pull and Bear, a leather jacket from Zara and a Queens Couture Jeans, i guess, i'll be making my way to fulfilling this already. (: I'm a very very happy person right now :D

& yes, fashion makes me go crazy(!) :~/

F a y.

(:

Happy Mayhem to all! Its already the month of May, and boy doesn't that ring a bell? Hahahaha :p
Its 93294384320 plans, and i'm being put into a spot. Damn. Oh well, i'm sure i will enjoy the day being 19 over and over again.

In anyways, work has been alright i guess, only that, i'm being label by some people, am i going to work or to town, just cos the way what i wear to work. Right.... Graduation of 2009 is this Thursday. . and i have no idea what to wear! Crisis!

On a lighter note, Kris Allen is so gonna be my idol, this year's winner of AI. All the way you go Kris!


He has the voice, the looks, the smile, man, i bet girls go drools over him. If only i was him huh? :P I love his styles man.

Oh and if you reading this Kental (hehe :P) I miss you. (:

F a y.