So long and goodbye. . sucker.

I came across a particular blog and well, the post he updated do has alot, and i meant alot of real life experience of people who just sucks big time in making people's life "difficult" . To humans out there who simply think what you wear or do and buy whatever shits you can think about, please, get the fucking point straight in your face that, this things are nothing compare to your inner self. . Oh well, maybe your luck is great if you happen to have a good circle of friends who has the higher calibre of what your lifestyles is, but bare this consequences, it will just be temporary, this won't bring you far, not the money, not the brands, but the inner you . .

Stop being a mofo moron thinking the big fancy lifestyle you have brings you different to the society, cos you ain't. You just like a replica of a barbie doll who gets dress up with fancy clothes and never will know what really life means and you will slowly but surely face the consequences in future. . advice? Don't be too dumb and be humble :D

Peace.

F a y.

What's there to see. .

AYG Volleyball Dry Run today was awesomely intensively hot! No, obviously besides the point that players of course, the weather is scorching hot! The moment after sunset, after removing my watch, the colour bar appeared so well, that it make me realize how tan i'll be in 5 days time. .

In other words, it was a fun experience yet so far after NDP . . what's more to ask? Involving in volunteer job is really fun, why? You get experience for free, and make new friends. .

Oh well, its nothing much more. . till here then.. ttyl . . xo.

F a y.

Riiiaaaaaaaaaaaaaswinnnee!

Wohoo, i did my first ever Reflection Journal . . didn't you'all know? I'm in RP now. . hahaha. . Right... oh well, the lazy ass Ria met up today after so long of busy schedule, she let me try doing her RJ for today . . Hahahaha, i swear its kinda fun but yet difficult cracking the brain thinking what to write, afterall, what i rant on her RJ will affect her grades, here goes the article i wrote on the RJ. .

Fashion. Well, that's isn't much of a wide topic anyone could calibrate about. Fashion isn't just about what you wear or what not to wear, or anything related to what's the "in" brand of this season.

If fashion needs a meaning , it will be, an art of human that picture themselves in a much sophisticated way. The most common brands like Louis Vuitton, Chanel, Guess, Ralph Lauren, this probably the most common brands that are way wide spread at the heavens shopperholics streets of Orchard Road. Nowadays teens like ranging from the age of 13 to 20s already know this high end labels of clothing that will make themselves be in the ease of the crowd that dress themselves up with this high end label clothing brands. Even more shopping malls are equipped with the theme to bring the youth in and express them to the name of fashion . More shooping malls at the streets of Orchard like ION and Orchard Central has the mainstream brands being displayed all over the malls.

“Dress to Kill” , that's probably the most common metaphor a invitation to a event such as birthday parties, private functions and clubbing scenes in Singapore will use. Compare the era of 19^th century sense of clothing then to now, the fashion scenes has manipulated by the influence of the states having more Fashion week displaying their latest collection and more reality show being aired here in Singapore showing our society, especially teens like us, telling them fashion is part of their daily routine they do to make themselves suits the society around them. Arts school like Lasalle and NAFA even has degree in Fashion Designing, and this makes them has the stepping stone to experience the foundations of Fashion before they can extend their own versatility to showcase their clothing line.

In conclusion, we are now in the 20^th century era, fashion will always be changing and do not have a constant styles for the human world like us, if they is an advice, well, it will be be brave to try on new things and never be outdated. .

So yeah that was it . . tell me about it .. anyway, thanks for the meet up yo swine girl. . hahaha.

I've decided to do something, a big planning needed, finally the word plan is here. This can't be impromptu cos this needs months of efforts. Lets hope something good happen out of it . . I really need this to happen for good.

I need to get up early just to see the sunrise at Sentosa, oh man, AYG. . ahhh~

F a y.

V or OT?

(via thundrr)

Now i need to get another pair, but yet again, Onitsuka has a latest pair that had caught my eye for a very long time . . . hmmmm...?

F a y.

In a much random note. . .

For once ever being nineteen isn't exactly being all rounded up to your perspective and mature . sometimes, letting your hair down to suits yourself to the crowd is all it takes to make yourself savour the moments of being kiddy for at least enjoying what you do that counts. Yesterday CR2 was awesome, the only thing i ever hate about participating is the costume, OMG, whoever had read my Twitter or Facebook update, i describe it as a Carebear and a Gay Pride showcase is really true, i swear, the performance already makes the guys hold pong pong and plus the costume, i swear, being abit over sissy is sure the most label concept I'm gonna get.. oh well, at least, i'm in NDP ! :D

In a much random note, i am a very happy person right now, cos i really did something way beyond my courage and comfort zone. . and this upcoming week is just gonna as busy as ever. .

Schedule check : Mon - Sun (excld Sat) Asian Youth Games, Volleyball, Sat, NDP NE Show 1. .

... now tell me, how can i rejuvenate myself with Zara's retail sale's therapy! :(

F a y.

will you . . ?

(via e l e a s h a)

. . pictures say a thousand words, just for the record, i'm officially astound by what you mention . . i think i'm in love with you again, yes, A, i love you . .

Yes .

That's the answer . .

F a y.

Updated as per usual.

So transformer was awesome as per usual as what the first movie was . . but i guess the ending could be better by not dragging how the autobots kill the megatrons. .

In a much random note, that stripe human whom had a few eye contacts that i know most of mine is checking the particular human out. . but when you when off, you smile! ahhhhh! Sugar melted feeling in my heart, i swear. . If only both of us had the courage to ask about ourselves, i guess, we both are afraid letting our friends knowing the truth . . but, OMG, you're super cute, i swear . .

For once ever, i was being under dress for the whole week of this week. . I need to shop till physically, i drop .. Moolah! And fucking busary, where the hell are you? I need to get Tyler!

F a y.

S.R

(via delayprocrastinate)

. . that's it. Its official.

F a y.

Gorgeous people.

(via eleasha)

I adore hot people. be it girls or guys, cos from in this stereotyping society, whatever they do or wear , they are near blemish free. . but isn't it true, they are simply gorgeous people they make people feel inferior upon seeing them, just today, i saw three humans . . one were super cute . . Heh . .

. .that brings me to a question, shall I pierce my ear? Hmmm. . .

Autobots - ing later on . . i guess?

F a y.

Its a matter of time.

(via Muito digno)

Ciggerate is a analogy of a drug that keeps you in peace, other than that, it ruines your inner soul. The lungs, the kidney, the liver, slowly turning to become a monster in you and eats you up slowly . . ever think about that? Its a matter of time . .

. . .the way how we blog now, needs a change, i guess. I've done mine, yours?

F a y.

Come on and say yeah!

“Fashion is what you adopt when you don't know who you are.”

Quentin Crisp

(via Wahlee)

Like what the pictures say, someday i'm gonna visit New York, Bali soon, up next Perth, soon new york!

F a y.

The only one that matters most.

Another day, another new day, another impromptu session. Initial plan was to head to Kallang, enjoy the sunset at the waterfront bridge.. end up heading to meet F's best friend, Aly, Gabs and SW. Awesome people, awesome styles of fashion. . Hoping now , SW will get the volunteer job since i already email the head of my AYG officials.

As days past by, i get closer with F that i find i need to do something now, F, thanks for everything, from the first day at Parkway we might not be as close but as time passes by, Kallang sure do make us closer than ever. Without you, i don't think i ever be close to S. Thanks for being there even when the most unpredictable timing ever. Accepting who i really am and just being a great partner in crime in whatever scene we are in. Thank you for everything great buddy, F.

F a y.

Domains!

You now can reach me in six different ways:

• Tumblr
• Twitter
• Facebook
• Blogger
• Windows Live
• AOL Music

I'm setting up a domain of my own soon, i guess its time to explore the real era idiosyncrasy development of web.

Truth's out, envy those Lasalle students, they have their own domain with high end fashion photography, omgee, their styles are like a drug to me! Alright, back to getting my Tumblr set up properly and professionally.

Chiao.

F a y.

Hey ya!

Being alone sometimes i fun, having the whole day to yourself, having to toll your composure and infatuations, told you its true, the person you mixed with determines how fucked up you are. . For the record, I'm not interested in that kind of people you make me think you are. .

A Fashion Veneta:Booth Moore’s in Milan, well actually everyone’s in Milan, for Men’s Fashion Week. She caught the Bottega Veneta show on camera. Will purple ever not be in for men? {LATimes}

F a y.

Tweet tweet!

Those above are my cluster of NDP'2009. Its an awesome cluster when we are there. (;

As much as you most whoever go tru this blog might know, i don't expose this blog to much people yet, due to some internal reason. . yet again, who reads right? Basically, i won't be much updating my blog , just follow me on twitter to keep updated on my on-goings activities on daily basis since twitter@sg has a text-to-web service that updates straights to the Facebook and Twitter account itself. . Here's my Tweet Acc - Syed Al'Fir.

Alright.. see ya soon.

F a y.

Rants.

Alright, NDP rehearsal was awesome, the ambiance, the whole concept, back stage passes, the mini fireworks, everything about it was perfect that no words could describe it. The cons, oh well obviously having to burnt all the Saturdays till 9th August. But fret not, its worth the experience man.

In much random note, super much random, this coming October, yeah, the last week of raya, ermm, i'm heading to Bali baby! Yes, Bali. I already book the flight together with the rest of starbucks colleagues!

I'm getting much toll with whatever i'm facing with.. in other words, i can't be bothered as much as i were before, i'm blessed with impromptu and stable acquaintances, there's no need much secureness and all.

Oh and met Lionel right after he book out for NDP rest day, we talked till like close to four in the morning. Hahaha, everyone's changing but having to talk to him comfortably was something new, cos we were never was close and yesterday was a much of breaking from the comfort zone. In much topic we ever talk about was about his NS life and all. Oh well, surely there's more of that meet ups.

F a y.

Its an epic-able story.

In the gloomiest day with nothing to do whatsoever, yes, that's what i do above. . read(!)

Eh hello? Who says guys don't read? Its not sissy neither boring okay! Hahaha. New moon? Yeah. Addicted to twilight era already. Can't wait for the movie.

In anyways, today briefing was almost alright i guess? Something strange happen, i was walking towards a room for the Access Crowd team at the stadium when i walked pass this two girls, one of them pointed at me and i heard, " I like this guy's fashion .. he looks cute right? " i was like what the heck, so i just gave a smile at them. When the deployment briefing was over, i had to walk pass them to head out to the exit door, she then smiled and say bye to me, hahaha, plus, she's a chinese girl. I wonder why huh? Hmmm... But it totally make my day doh. Hahaha :P

Alright Volleyball training starts next week and i can't wait for it either. Adios people.

I think i've finally found a genuine happiness, all rounded , right now.

F a y.

Goodbye.

Bewildered and Numb to whatever your attitude is, I think I shall stop being around you, for good, for better and for the future. . .

F a y.

Va-va-voom!

Just once, that Sport-link worker is so worth to be check out.. So cute! *meltz*

How you smile and say thank you, ahhhhhhhhhhhh! can't get you off my mind can?

F a y.

Dig their fashion sense.

Found this from some Lasalle student's portfolio website, i dig this kind of fashion sense, seriously, i fetish people who can dress up like this and pull a look out of it. Hah. Really. They are just like va-va-va-voom! Guys with metrosexual styles aren't always not straight alright.

There's a significant difference between being gay/bi and being a normal human being. By being judgmental upon seeing those picture and the word fetish, that's assumption, facts are, did i even be or say in this blog ever, i like boys? Nope? Yes, now you get it? Fetish do not have the same meaning of interested. So back off and start going to English classes before assuming. Peace.

F a y.

You so fly, i want you!

Oh well, Drag me to Hell was hilariously lame, i swear, the sound effect and the gruesome attempt of making the whole story line like a replica of Scary Movie(s), hahaha, i'm never gonna watch any movies Sam Raimi, the abhorrent director of course.

Everything yesterday was real impromptu, you know what? I'm in love with the word impromptu that planning will soon not be in my dictionary.

& i screwed the interview, sometimes, being too honest isn't good. . lesson 101, be very apprehensive during interviews. .

F a y.

Maybe we trying too hard.

I owned a Polaroid camera (: Hahahah, yeah right, that Poladoid application is the most favorite as for now on Little's Jay. .

Tomorrow's Tully's coffee interview, lets hope i get a better offer there than this starfucks! :)

F a y.

Ain't no more.

Its a much of a bone to pick statement, but hell yeah, i proud to say, i've less and less to be what i thought what i really am, to begin of this awesome process of changing, i'm sorry, but i have to mixed around with the right people. People whom are in a good relationship. I'm not that two finger sign anymore, with determination and perseverance, i will definitely overcome this. .

Oh god, please help me in this difficult path i've been having. . I need your guidance. .

P/S: You're such a beautiful cute girl, i wish i know your name. .

F a y.

3rd June Post.

It took me awhile to read that particular post you posted like about me being judgmental upon the changes i've seen, oh well, i won't say much, but i won't be clarifying anything about your changes anymore, can't accept it? Be it. I won't either. Cos that's the truth, Reality bites just so you know and yet again, its compulsively in-juvenile for me to even say that to you if only me see the changes, yet again, look at the bigger scale of the picture, is it just me? Think for yourself and not what others think you might say now, but if i don't have stand to your uphold priority states now, that shows how much i stand to the league you're having. You're too oblivion i guess.

But yet again, who am i to you? Have fun with that . . I lose nothing either.

Seriously, i have better things in life than to think about friendship ups and downs. Can't stand the change in me or can't accept any harsh reality feedbacks, go ahead, leave or i might say be that snobbish mentality of not being friends, cos in this era, you're label as immature. This isn't referring to you if you think you are. So yeah, peace.

F a y.

Ain't that a poser?

Hello, right, the melody of AAR are really a sweet rhythmic way of listening to music when you're down. it sure cheers up your day, for sure, well, that's a theory for me.

Spending my Monday afternoon with Little Jay and Garage Band'09.

I despide people whom think they have what it takes to be a all-know-everything person about fashion, since when it was a fact that Cheap Monday jeans can be found at Bugis street? Oh and Nudie jeans and Mont Blanc are in the same company? Please, spare those five minutes criticising about my fashion and do some research. Seriously, mash cap up high the forehead with tees that are valued twenty bucks at Bugis street with a replica of folded pants(jeans from Penin) , you call that a fashion sense? Haha. More like matrep please. . You don't even know what's Raoul. So, you can suck someone's dick and call yourself a fashionista, that prolly make me change my mindset.

F a y.

You're done.

Temperature in the room is like 17 degrees Celsius, the cold wind from the air-condition is way to freezing that expected. . oh well, at least its colder than the living room.

I freaking can't understand the deep feeling of me, so hard i try, the harder the impact is.

Seriously, lets get over it, i think I'm calling this off.

F a y.

Elevator.

Alright, for once in my life, ever, i was stuck in a elevator. Not just any elevator, the school elevator, hahaha, it was funny cos, i guess I'm the only one remaining clam while others was immaturely making jokes and laugh for god damn no purpose reasons.

So finally, this week is the last week for the NDP rehearsal at the college itself, starting next Saturday, common ground of Float@Marina will be the training center. I still can't except the fact that I'm going to be holding pong-pong and wearing that "promoting gay pride" a.k.a care bear costume. . Plus, where my location for the formation is, there'll be alot of cameras! Argh!

My accreditation for Asian Youth Games is officially approved, some of my course mates has finally start their training while I'm waiting for mine, hope it will be soon, that make me days in this vacation to kill time.

Something happen while on the way back from school today, was in the bus from school, i didn't brought any bags, just my typical look with my necklace which I've been wearing for ages. This person sat beside me after a few stops after mine, he then tap my shoulder and ask what time was it, i answered and continue listening to my mp3. Then he tap again, he said i have a nice shoe, like what the fucking heck is his motive? Omg. Then soon after, he smile and everyone was looking at me like as if I'm his fucking gay partner, omg, fuck this kind of people. Bonus point for your sense of fashion and cute face, but god, fuck your humiliation actions towards me. Urgh.

Push, push back upon, make me believe you want me. .

F a y.

Regivervenated Ultimatum.

Impromptu meeting with the colleagues and movie session with Lily was great.

That Zara incident, seriously, it was like butterfly in stomach plus bees. OMG. Hahaha. Smile again please? :P You totally melted me to the core. The second turn towards your direction was the most awesome thing ever, you smiled at me. . Heh. If only i know what's your name. .

The remedy of being hypocrite is way too much too handle. Go ahead, be disgusted, i ain't give a damn to ya life, and so do ya. Technically, its isn't ya life, its mine, i be what i want to be.

Get the drift bitch?

This Nathan boy has a sweet melting voice man plus cute too. Hahaha. Lucky.

F a y.

Oh yeah!

The orders are to be collected, and yeah, i can't wait to get it on Little Jay's blanket soon.

Movie with Lily and prolly southern ridges. (:

I'm dying to get Tyler. He's just too hot now, busary, please come soon!

To those narrow minded people and snobbish mindset who randomly reads my blog,

FYI (for your information) , Little Jay is my Macbook and Tyler is my iPod Touch (soon) . .

So yeah, now you know how dumb you can get by assuming stupid stuffs? Hah, YP . .

F a y.

Twilight.

I just tasted the most awesome thing in the world, human blood (:

Maybe you're next. . watch out. .

Twilight is getting all over me. .

F a y.

Please.

Please, just spare those comments to yourself, cos this is who i am, at least being honest to my true self, so please, i am this way, nothing would change it, maybe in future, but you know that won't happen now.

As most of you might decipher it to yourself, yes, i'm that, that eight letter word, but yeah, yet again, i didn't want this too, no one will ever understand this . .

Oh and Aaron, thanks for the surprise. .

F a y.

I know you want me.

Asian Youth Games allocation position, be surprise, be very surprise, its a limited number of people position to have this location, ready? SENTOSA baby! Its perfect! Beach Volleyball hot bods :D oh and and torch relay. (:

So excited man! Freaking can't wait for the event to start! Singaporean representative looks cute doh. Hahahaha.

Alright, LSM quizzes revision are freaking stressing me real bad :(

I know you want me . .
YOU know i want ya!
:p what a eye contact we had . . play hard to get, play hard to get , *breathe*

F a y.

Armin Van Buuren

And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye, wish me well
You've gotta let me go

Are we human or are we denser?

Credit card splurges!

I've made like four transition using my credit card online and paypal, hahaha,  i feel like a rich kid huh? Right.. . . . . .

Oh well, i get things done very well if its pretty last minute. Just like today, upon hearing today is the deadline of script writing, i get it done during tutorial with little jay while the lecturer is busy explaining module training on the board, and viola! its printed out by 3 pm, 1 hour before the deadline, but yet again, i did some mistakes here and there, but its part of learning right? 

I'm waiting for this god damn frolick to get back to me about the badges, yet, no response?

This is the cons of online purchasing. Ahhhh!

F a y.

Truth, or lies? You decipher it.

I don't even know what I'm trying to be nor become? I have yet to fixed this boundaries around me but then yet again, this isn't what I'm truly am now.

Everything is possible if you put your heart and soul into it, and yes, i think i found what i am really am, but this is much obvious already around me and my circle of friends, they've notice it, am i suppose to be in denial still?

Please, judge me all you want, then again, you don't mean a thing to my life to even judge me, cos this is who i am and this is what i've become, i don't burden you with any problems nor sins, accept it or leave it, cos all i need is now, is just fresh air and prolly Cidan will do fine, my yeah, A, i need you now. . . . oh wait, you are beside me now (:

F a y.

Stupid.

1. Grab Your Phone.

2. What is the 3rd picture of in your phone?
A and D.

3. What's your ringtone?
I got a feeling - BEP.

4. Who's the 1st person that comes up under M?
Markus.

5. Who's the last person you called?
Apen

6. Who was your last missed call from?
Withheld.

7. Who's the 1st person who comes up under C?
Cousin.

8. Who's your speed dial number 2?
Father.

9. What does 3rd text in ur inbox say?
" Haha, i'm going school library, meet you there tom .. "

10. Who was your last received call from?
A.

11. What does your 2nd sentbox text say?
" Friday, cathay. . "

12. How many messages are currently in your inbox?
120.

13. What is the wallpaper?
D.

14. Who's speed dial number 1?
Voice mail.

15. Who is the 15th message from in your inbox?
"Hun, i'll be back soon, meet you k?"

16. Who's the 1st person who comes up under B?
Bernice.

17. How many bars of signal do you currently have?
OH.

18. What network are you on?
Starhub

19. Name every person you have a message from in your inbox.
A, Liyana, Apen, G, Dory.

20. What does your 6th text message in your inbox say?
Eh, wtf, serious sia.

21. Who is the first person in your contacts?
Afiq

22. Who is the last name in your contacts?
Zuhairee.

23. What does the last text in your inbox say?
I miss ya fir.

24. What is your screensaver?
I don;t know.

25. What is your balance?
Huh

26. Whos the last person under H?
Henry.

27. What is your bluetooth name?
Syed Al'Fir.

28. How many numbers are in your phone?
234

29. Could you live without it?
No.

Rebel.

Oh well, whatever happens inside Rebel remains inside, but some things i just feel like saying, and in any case, you hate how my life is, with this clubbing scene in me, you can click the X now and leave, yet again, just a reminder, this blog is mine, i have every rights and so to rant or talk about anything, if you hate it, don't read it, if you read it, stop insulting or criticise me in ya own blog, i have my own life, i'm sure you do too. So that's make a logical explanation? I guess so (:

Zirca was nonsense, i meant the type of music there, if only the genre of music is R&B , i swear the use of the dance floor there will be a good use. Yesterday was overly crowded with so many Malays, not that i ain't one, but the percentage of having them inside is like 1 out of 12, yesterday was like too much of them, but yet again, all look too typical, end up they entered Zirca cos oh well, guess its too crowded. 3 things happen inside, that's, funny? Hahaha. One was i was about to get a drink leaving the podium area, this guy dress up like some fashion gaga pulled my hand and shouted to my ear, "Bro, you're from what camp? " I couldn't hear him well cos the god, i thought he said, secondary, but then after multiple times, finally the word camp logically entered my mind, i look at him and shouted back, " Err, i'm not in NS yet . . *laugh* " . . I don't know why but that seems like the worst conversation you could make in a club. Then was during the dancefloor , maybe cos of leather jacket and look older, i guess? this guy came up and dance along with me? WTF. Hahahaha. I was just playing along with the atmosphere, i have to act friendly there right?

Oh well, the last one was, hahahahah, only Farna knows about it, this ___ is OMGEE damn cute. Hahahaha. The smile is still lingering around my mind and your dance moves, ahhh! *melts*

Ok done, i didn't have THAT much fun, but yeah, i almost got wasted, but thank god! No.

F a y.

MP! MP!

I want to get a Manhattan Portage bag(!!!!!)

Where the hell is the shop at in Singapore? Anyone?

Dilemma, a big big one, Rebel or just stick at home tonight..

F a y.

NDP.

1 more week to another in school training NDP cluster training and off its every Saturday training at Float@Marina (Floating Platform) . .

Many of you have been asking what the heck is the dance item i'm gonna do right? Some say its just a dance and simple choreography, oh well, think again, here's the offical first publicity of what Motivators of NDP 2009 will be doing;

Hahahahaha, in the video are proffesional, hahah, obviously i don't dance excatly to it, please!



Notice their dance moves, ahhhh! I suck at that, seriously! Its super fast!
I can't dance for nuts, seriously, hahaha!

F a y.

When i see your face it gives me Heaven. .

That picture above is the only picture ever taken while I'm on my work uniform, well, that wouldn't be long too since Starbucks is getting to infested with humans and thinking that purchasing something from this cafe means you're rich, urgh, what's with this kind of YP youths.
TCC or Tully's will be my next F&B line.. soon enough. .

Anyways, while on shift today, i don't tend to check my cell since my prepaid is severely low and I'm waiting for my pay day to get it top up , i just had this conscious feeling to just check, to my surprise, Dory said she's on the way, the up most biggest surprise is to see Lily entered the back door!! Hahaha, its up most the best surprise, even my birthday recently surprise couldn't top that. Oh well, i miss her :) Soon enough, flyer with her and catch up to do . . :)

Oh well, i need to get some rest, NDP second last rehearsal in school before platform! :)

I'm craving for your face even when you know it can't never happen. .

F a y.

Turn the car around.

So finally i've found the song that's been playing on and off unpredictable on the radio airwaves, so is Friday, i swear this weeks and days i've realize the weeks past by so fast that it makes me wonder, am I too slow to adapt with this fast changes or is this world too fast for me to adapt? You decide.

In a much conclusion to all this drama going on, i want to make it clear here, right now, I love you A. Yes, A, this is for real, i think I love you yet again (: - yeah right! Hah, i'm so moving on from you... :D but yet again, i miss you picking me up in that red lavish Chevrolet car.

Give me a break let me make my own pattern. All that it takes is some time but I’m shattered I always turn the car around..

For the record, the A, is not Apen, in case you'all think it is. Peace.

Oh well, i better get going now . .

F a y.

So are you ready for the big day?

Hahaha, right now, i'm just too lucky to even say anything, i don't wanna be disappointed either, in anyways, just now test was a relieve cos its worth my time writing the neatest and meticulous notes ever for three topics, next up, Logistic Management Unit 1 - 3.5 . .

Alright, i better get going now, i have something in mind that i don't even know what is it.

F a y.

Its freaking 4 am and i can't freaking sleep. Argh, god, i'm dead for sure later.

This D is drop dead gorgeous, i swear, freaking jawline and all. Hah! Wtf.

This is what you get at 4 am symptoms.

F a y.

Partyyyyy!

Music is too addictive, let's get the feet going! Soon! (: (:

Party people on the floor, on the floor!

F a y.

Permanent.

I did proud today with being place 65th with about 6 classes doing 2.4km. (:

Not to mention, how much i've did on BEV revision. But the tiredness is yet to be relieve.

Soon, i dare myself to smile at you I . . (:

F a y.

Is it me? Or are you not taking me seriously? :(

Just a thought of the insomnia mode i've been having for the past few days, plus this unpredictable stomach pain i've had for ages. Apparently, i'm not in the best mood to even study nor anything related to education, this includes, school.

Undeniably, I've to say that I'd always been down with post-bad luck symptoms that totally make a great toll at the end. Its utterly indecisively interesting, in a way that it gave me hopes one second and the another, it just threw me down , hitting the floor real hard.

Why does this faith always keep happening? I'm still finding the perfect answer, wait, there isn't any i guess.

Friends/peers, whatever you known the term as, has always been a good source of whining, communicate, have fun with, but yet again, this is just as same as a country having to expose the most powerful weapon ever, nuclear, or in this oxygen converting to blood humankind, trust.
They might just change in a spilt second, even in the most sincere way or not, it hurts you so badly to see all this happening to yourself when you know, you did the very best out of yourself to be the best person you can be to a friend. Nor feelings or initiative are converted to anyone you hope they will. Its heart breaking, literally to see, they take it as a joke, i had enough, seriously, if you keep having that joke or juvenile mindset of me being close to just one person, think again, why did I stay put to just one person? Cos probably, you kept joking around and don't take me seriously. I'm deeply disappointed.

Just spare me the details, cos i know you don't even bother to, i should have be in NS by now, is this a mistake ? or am I just growing up to be a much better person? You decide.

A, all i need is just a listening ear from you, not being with you, please, understand.

F a y.