Last of them all.

The last post of the year. It won't be short nor long. Simple and sweet. Haha, right.

Party time is here, so let's celebrate. Spectacular fireworks with wonderful friends to count in the new year, 2009, finally!

My first new year resolution will be; pass my btt! ;p

F a y.

I just want you to know. .

To received that reply from you, it really means alot to me, i thought you will never do it, but you did. Thank you. Its strange how you're always at the back of my mind, girl. Perhaps, that four letter word thing is still somewhere riding in my heart. But no, i can't. You belong to someone and you're only that three letter word now and ever.

Its more strange that right now, right here, I'm still where I am in the start, no one or perhaps just me being infatuated or in denial to what the truth is.
Yeah, I still _ _ _ _ you, S.

Another lullaby to what the reality holds.

F a y.

Future Endeavours.

For once, i already know what's my future plan, after enrolling into Poly either any digital animation or visual comm courses, i am then gonna try my luck on LucasFilm Internship. Nobody says it was easy, but I'm gonna do my very best to expand my versatility of my interest into something big and realistic. Now, who dares to says, graphics designer do not have job in Singapore? Hah.

F a y.

Tall oaks grow from little acorns.

Frantic is the one word I could describe yesterday. It was pretty much catching up day with the two best buddy of mine. Somehow rather I love eating home cook food now, especially cooked food prepared by this particular tourism student from TP. He do knows his salt and pepper in cooking delicious gourmet. Spending less than ten bucks on ingredients and helping to make it, is one exciting part of enjoying the food thereafter. Yesterday's menu: Fried Spaghetti with Black Pepper Chicken. :)

Soon after much sticking out eyes to the tv set watching deuce bigalow, we then headed to watch Yes Man on the next available time slot from Cathay, and boy the show was awesomely fabulously entertaining. It thought me some valuable lesson in life.

On a much slighter note, I'm feeling gratitude to my life right now, it may be blunts at times, i may not spent time every second with my friends, but then, we will somewhat meet and they had always makes me happy and appreciated. What could i ask more? Well there's a saying, better flatter a fool than fight him, so yeah, i am close to being careless to anyone who tries so hard to bring me down or thinking I'm affected in any way. I've learnt and I've grown alright? Heh.

Have a great Sunday Morning (:

F a y.

Rewarding Treats.

It was quite a long day when actually i had to re-route going to Henderson Waves at night without transport, with the much "confidence" level of Ijan, we almost got lost which is quite a tedious procedure. There were walk way leading to the the southern ridges but we had to walk through a pitch black mangrove cum some forest that is totally freaking me out. Lesson to be learn, not going there when its already night and no bus. Hahaha.

So after a long process finding another way, we finally did reach to the peek of mount Faber and then to the southern ridges or Henderson Waves. There were small sparking fireworks at the sky while we was there, yeah, how lucky was my Christmas night? Pretty much? :)Well, pretty much was there till 3 am and back to town waiting for some night rider ride which we mistaken that its on service when the bus billboard stated: "Eve of PH". -_-''

So basically it was hell of a day cos there was a kindly like hell taxi driver let us have a ride to orchard for free. We didn't ask for it doh, he stop by the road and offered us, another lucky charm? It was a good Christmas day. Its so ironic that i always gave directions to people on how to go Henderson Waves when i forgotten that the very first time i headed there was on a bike. Hah, but hey, I know how to get there already in a much shorter time, no need to climb up the long wided tiring staircase. :D

New year resolution? Coming up very soon.

Oh and yeah, the greatest news in the whole year of mine, ready for it?
I FAILED MY OFFICIAL BTT!
-_-'' The next test will be on FEBRUARY! A-hole!

F a y.

Random.

Randomly surfing the Youtube site and I saw this two gorgeous girls with wowness talents;



Enjoy (: (p.s: pause the default video at the bottom right hand corner)

F a y.

Ho ho ho!

Season's greeting and a joyful Christmas.

Snug as a bug in a rug.

Ages ago, the boy who always like to compare with other people and always being way over pessimistic has finally found the light at the end of the tunnel. The boy now finally realize that he hold his own destiny, during that hard wretched time, he faces alot of shits and obstacle that almost all the time, he was that close to just give up life. But with much determination inside him and with the moral supports of his peers, he then gain confidence to strive the best in no matter what he does and always try the very least to be optimistic in life.

In that particular time too, he has alot of peers who just enjoy or perhaps an hidden agenda from each of them to just back stabbed this sincere and honest friend of them in one way or another. With no reasons yet to be known, to this friends once were, fuck the hell out of you all. Karma is way much pain then any of vulgars received. What goes around, comes around. In that phase too, he faces friends so close having conflicts and miscommunication occurs indefinitely, but, in times to come, he found out that absence makes the heart grows founder. By time, if you need to know, they are much more closer than ever. His best friend in secondary school is what he once thought he lost but I guess we appreciate both so much that we knew what we said once before, were just words during that spur moment. He really love his best friend and he wouldn't want to lose her as a best friend (: He appreciate her during secondary school and now. Will always be. Soon then came his closest friend, whom is right now happier with all her best gift from god, her bands, her family and her bf. He had notice that she is much happier right now than ever and he is ever so happy to see his one and only closest friend he had since secondary school to have her happiness and always praying she'll be successful with whatever she's doing right now, her bands and her school.

As for right now, he has no exact words to be thankful to god for having his prayers answered. The peers around him at this time is all that matters, they make him smile, laugh, being happy and you name it, they are capable of doing absolutely anything, minus the bad things of course. He is obliged , way too obliged. He spent much of his time at work with great people and when he has free time, he definitely would want to spent time with them.
Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious great.

And for the rest, which what he mention yesterday, the best ever companion as for now and ever, he can never ask for more, he is so exhilarated, exultant gratified with his life now. He is more than ever appreciated than he is now, thank you *insertyournamehere*. (:

And to people whom thought they make his life harder, fuck you all! It was never a mistake or regretion but lets just say you're not worth to be even be in my circle of friends, suckers.

F a y.

Eve of the Eve!

The meeting at JR's condo was awesome, i felt really welcome and the partners are all awesome people. I manage to get myself break free from the shell.

On the much greener side of life, I managed to catch with my old good buddies, miss them since forever and finally today I had the one and only chance to meet them. Shikin's DSLR is really one handy and favorite gadget of the day. The pictures are all awesome! Can't wait for another outing with them next Friday, Kin, please bring along your Claren and Mr SR and Zus, please bring along your macbook! Thanks guys for today (:

Honestly, I'm pretty much blessed with vivacious and optimistic companion around me now. I've never been much happier until the age of eighteen, five months. This people are simply out of this world definition and I've never regret holding on to them. (: I love them to every corner inch.

Can you hear Santa's reindeer?

F a y.

Sick god damn it.

Flu bug, hot like a volcano going to be erupted anytime soon, yes, i'm god damn sick.
But thanks Imah for actually cheering me up by your texts. (;
Nice meeting you new friend.
Meet you at Jalan Jamal Starbucks one day babe. :D

Anyhoo, medical results are out and I'm somewhat happy about it. Other than this typical normal thing, I am now in step 2 of yesterday's post, (: (:

Tomorrow is my store Christmas celebration over at the boss condo. How awesome is that? First Christmas eve party.

Too mundane? Well, that is it.

F a y.

Preposition and Prepositional .

It's the apple of my eye.

Without freshness or appeal because of overuse.

Its such a intimidating statement whenever i make that particular statement. I feel so guilty yet lying to myself is also another allegation. Is there a reason to lie about what I really am feeling right now or is it just stereotypes that I've been heeded around my abstinence friends.
The question is:
Shall i or Shall i not?

One things for sure, i can't be lying thought out this phase of shits i am now. I have no idea what gravitationally created this neither do I know what make a change.

Win lose situation is a good way to describe this unrealistic situation but yet it will be hackneyed and astound to people who are cliche with it. Great, how dubious can this be?

I can't take it anymore, I need to explode out from this shell pretty badly.
Fidelity will do just great for me now or perhaps, hankering? :\

F a y.

Right now na na na!

Four days without posting? Hah, you gotta be kidding me right? I have never survive not updating my blog so frequently, it can get so worst that i'll blog every hour long ago. :p

Nothing much for this week, perhaps, I discover something very awesomely strange, I can sing? Like you guys can stop rolling eyes or rolling on the floor laughing, i didn't say i can sing well right? Fact that, everyone can sing, not all that is, but all you need is some really hard vocal teachers, how to breathe, and how to use your diaphragm. My vocal teacher(s)? The two utmost talented brothers, Sally and Ijan, seriously they are hard on me doh, but what's fun without spontaneous sparks right? Well, they thought me loads of good things, boosting up my self esteem is one thing. (:

Today work is really fun! I being put at floor to do frap drinks! Hahaha, awesomely great man! Especially having the most friendliest duty manager, Ama on duty, what more could i ask for? Sally, Shix! and Ariff came to visit me, ahahha, thanks guys!

I saw Sab at Powerhouse yesterday, yeah. It was damn crowded, music was alright I guess? But I'm having second thoughts on going to club again, well for once yesterday, I didn't touch a single glass containing alcohol. Dance-dance!

That's all for now.

That Juliet girl, i can't get my eyes of you, your smile, your looks.. Argh, i think i'm fallen for you.
Damn.

F a y.

LOL!

Basic Theory Test, E-Trial(!!!) Results;

Paper 1 Trial - 64.2%

Paper 2 Trial - 72.3%

Total Result?

FAIL!

Thank god it was just a e-trial, god, pathetic or what? Truth is, I didn't studied the book alright.
-__-''

F a y.

Notice.

Why? Why now? Why till this very least moment? Why can't just this memories be burn away?

M.I.A in the process.
Won't expect much post from me.
Need to get away for awhile.

F a y.

The day when you said " You are the best.."

Somehow or rather, undeniably I need to do some soul searching. There's some things still missing right now and the feeling keeps coming back unexpectedly.

Enough dwelling about life, its kind of like too emo, so yeah, time to make a change, here's the time, a perfect one indeed.

Just one issue, to like some people who claim to see changes in me when for some goodness sake you barely know me deeply saying this and that, I have no idea where and when you get such information from. Or perhaps if you want to say you experience it yourself, let me ask you a question, "you sure you know me that freaking well? " trying to proclaim maybe you hate how i am and some "good" reason you can give, i have no idea what the god damn thing i've did and passing on that cold shoulder won't affect me a lil bit. Cos people come people go. Like I said, if you can't accept how I am now, you won't know the real me. I know who can and who can't.
Peace :) no names right? So don't be offended if you think you are the one :)

Reply to tags (kecho gila!)

F.. : I know who you are, better not mention the name here, thanks, whatever we are facing is quite similiar, but still, getting over it is one solution dude. All the best .

Leen: Thanks(: Take care too.

Khai/Vadiella: Yeah best colleague ever! Make more latte for me! That sugar syrup is the bomb! Oh and sorry I didn't talk much in messenger today, was pretty much preoccupied with some stuffs. Take care babe (:

Ria: Like finally kau ever flood tag board aku! Hahahah! WHERE YOU GOING? Okay, just take care and we have a lot of catch up to do! Thanks for asking me to smile. ZoukOut best pe? Diam ah!

Vomitboy: -_-'' OI! Hahahha! Yeah, after your intership we shall chillek, like as if now we can't. =_=''

Razwani: Unfortunately no. Hahaha, saw your blog's pictures, seems pretty fun. Hahaha, next year perhaps? Go together? LOL!

Thanks for all the tags.

*Fir.

I still remember the day when you said; " you've been the best person ever....". sigh.

Get it over and done with alright.

Seriously, to "a friend" , ".." whoever you are, thanks for siding my point of me perhaps, but actually you all don't have to bother already . Its settled and I think I'm quite apprehensive and its time to fucking damn really move on from people who simply doesn't want to appreciate you a single bit.

Oh and Wan, let's not make a big fuss now, oh and Ida, you've make your point, you're sick and tired or me? For real right? Alright. Thanks. And FYI, I'm not your adik-adik to be ambush with some greatest sarcasm by you alright, its good enough that I actually have my respect for you, just take care of your girlfriend.

I need to be wiser in thinking better and ignoring things that just a waste of time, like what Sally told me or in fact scolded me yesterday, I'm doing this that are not suppose to be done in the first place and how far people have gone to step on my bloody head, its time to show how stiff and upright I am. Please, I have my fucking own dignity and respect to gain, just because I'm quite quiet and not physically fit to be fought with, there's something call - Knowledge! Think maturely and you won't bother people like this, they somehow rather will get tired playing with their own toy. I think its really time to break through this shell. Despise me all you want alright,
Firdaus-Haters clans, cos simply you all just making me famous.

Seriously, i have better things in life to be think about, friends who are totally wiser and smarter in age and I'm much happier right now.

On a lighter note, today's work was seriously a relieve, Saffy was my LC and she's like the best ever LC i came across, kecho! Than came this two new colleagues, Khai and Hadi, both are awesomely friendly and bubbly. We ended up like laughing to our own jokes on the bus ride home. In simple, Starbucks is best after all. Next week schedule for work is hectic. Morning! God damn 6.45am! On a brighter side, I am capable to do drink calling-finally! Thanks Saffy! (:

ZOUK OUT 2008!

*Fir.

Alright, here's the deal.

This is MY blog, I write whatever I wish to write. Yeah, I miss her. So? Its just a miss right? What's the problem? Perhaps it was even a mistake to even write what I feel anymore, when it comes to you. Hah, so before you, Wan, starts to despise me in my blog at my tag board, just a reminder, yes, I won't want to bother anymore, like how you want me to be. Siapa ganggu siapa? Okay, i admit, its me, so its said and done here, be protective all you want with Ida, cos you don't have to anymore, I won't acknowledge her if i see her or say hello. Yes, like how you mention in her blog,
I WILL MIND MY OWN BUSINESS AND GET A LIFE(like as if i don't, hah) .

I've said sorry to you publicly, so here i am doing it again, sorry i hurt your girlfriend, my ex girlfriend alright. Have a good wonderful relationship. I will gladly appreciate it after this post, you won't visit my blog and tag me nonsensically stuffs, thank you.

Now, i don't need a girl to make me happy, full-time companion will do just fine, and i have mine, they are the best of the best.

*Fir.

Sigh. :(

Have I really move on? I myself have no idea. Its hanging by a tread on how i'm really feeling right now right here. If i really move on, why am I still having this jealous thing in me?

I have no idea why must we end in this way, I let you go with a better person, having me taking the whole courage all inside me to tell that person to take a better place of me, suddenly we are strangers? I really miss you, I don't need to be with you, but how you are towards me and the only person I wish to be there, is now never will.

I'm sorry, really, I miss you, Sa'Idah. Have a blissful relationship with Wan :') .

Here i am waiting without any one chance to see you smiling back at me.

And to ___, why sudden change attitude with me is still a question needs to be ask. I miss how nice you were to me.. That smiley at the end of every text, sigh, I miss my old happiness I had with specific people. I swear. *big sigh*

*Fir.

Class 2B!

Yes, I only enrolled into class 3 but yesterday was already my unofficial class 2B practical - at pasir ris park car park. After my first fall of just making the bike balance for like 3 weeks ago, i never dare to touch that bike again, maybe perhaps just a pillion, but yesterday i start the god damn engine and ride smoothly(not exactly) with changing gear(with an instructor behind) up to gear 4! Now, its officially making me have the urge to enroll into class 2B, ever since last time I've been saying this -procrastination. But i really had fun riding that 125Z bike, which is Sally's . Thanks dude.

Yesterday in-store training i swear was damn hell boring. I swear! Thank god, i had Raspberry milk ice blended and Caramel Machiato(!!!). Today yet another SB class, the last one, Communication about Coffee module.

The new tune from Chris Brown, Froze is dedicated to well, only I know it is dedicated to. I really miss you so much, is it just my alter ego being this way? Sigh.

"..Ive lost my temperature
Where've all my sunny days gone
Is there any place to stay warm
Its not easy when your gone
Tell me how im s'pose to go on
Right now i dont be strong

With the rain
Comes more pain
U never know
Hard to hide
When i cry
This pain inside
Body shakes
I feel so numb
Im shiverin
Why did you go
My body is froze
Every part of me cold
My hearts achin
And i cant breathe
Souls breakin
Minus 31 degreese
Nowhere else to go
Froze.."

Oh and Shix, i owe you TWO muffins with ONE Oreo Cheesecake! :p

*Fir.

Best of me.

First POA test = SCREWED UP! Yeah, that sums it up how i'm feeling right now. School's lab for almost close to 2 hours of break. I've decided to NOT attend the last two days of school. Cos its pure boring lessons.

Today, all the way till Saturday, STARBUCKS! The only thing that makes me excited about doing something!

Recently you're just bring back the old good reminiscence part of how close you were. I find it amazing that you've always been at the back of my mind whenever I miss someone. You are the one.

Now its all said and done, i can't be believe you were the one to tear me down.

*FiR.

So? Let's ROCK!

Hahahaha, how dumber can i get? Well, a 200% dummer! Yeah, desperado, that's another thing.

Well, well, i ain't that inmatured, so i guess its time to lay down things for now and enjoy life? Disappointed much? Nah-uh! There's more in life to think about.

Starbucks? There's too much to be type down here, working at Starbucks = FUN FUN FUN!!

I'm having fun at the class, the store, the colleagues, the coffee, THE WORK! Hah, really, no words can describe how i'm feeling now but very very happy is in simple volcab.

So before anything else, my e-trial test is next Monday, cdc here i come.

My blog, i swear is getting too redundant and oh-my-so-wonderful-life style of blogging. LOL!

Oh and to people who wish to despise me in their blog, just use my name lah alright.

I CAN'T BE BLOODY BOTHERED WITH THIS KIND OF PEOPLE, ANYMORE.

Till here peeps, taking care all.

*FiR.

Fun Business day!

OR- BUSINESS GROOMING-OFFICE.

*drools* OR *jaw drop* Say it together with me, I-Look-Gay-ish! -_-''! But the shot was taken simply with a typical non-high quality pixels camera and it look like as if i'm shot with a DLSR. 

Overall today, it was pretty much exciting to see the rest of the course mates wearing formal clothes pretending we are being really interviewed by real employer, getting us ready for the workforce.

I want to thank Sally for borrowing his belt, sending me to school and what's really appreciated. Right now i'm at Starbucks having my ass rest for awhile before the class-mates heading to Arab Street for a Sheesha Session and a long time since we had a reunion. :D

I have SB class on Sunday, which means, i'm meeting the class of freshmen of partners yet again! Yeehaa! 

Alright, this macbook right now i'm using needs some eyesight application to be switch for some fun, while the people in the store is looking at us(Nad and Me) like some kind of corporates having some meeting. LOL! :p

ℑir☠

Hah, enough.

*Sacarsm* Hahahah! I may want to consider scolding people's parents, no i meant, scolding vulgar to people's parents in any case i'm angry. Its like my parents do not teach me moral values of being respected and respect people. Its so damn stupid that i give a reason like, " when i'm angry, i tend to just scold vulgar to people parents.. " hah, so funny or what??

Imagine receiving this, " why don't you just die with your mother long ago? You make a burden to people's life.." Hahahaha, wow, nowadays, this kind of remarks are just so easy to be said. Imagine, your mum/dad is still alive, i make a vulgar remarks to them, how the fuck will you able to cope with that right? Its so a big damn issues, that super sensitive. Plus bonus hurting and humiliation points for scolding a mother of someone's that's already pass on. FUCK!

My gravity of the accusation has nothing to do with my parents god damn it. You've gone too far fuck, put some human values into you. Respected you all this while was just a simple damn god mistake.

Fuck, i can be bothered with you anymore. The outcome of yesterday's humiliation is just too much to handle from you anymore, Aliff.

Fact is, i swear, i've forgive you, just that, its too much, and i will never ever forget this.

★FiR.

STARBUCKS! ROCKS!

Starbucks class was awesomely great, literally. Oh and the most enjoyable part was the classmates, partners like Yuji, Nabila, Fatin, Adly, Haziq, Wirda, Nadya, Shark and Valen was really super friendly all along the class modules. Big surprise is that, we are all really strangers BUT we already have an outing this Sunday, wow! Different partners from different stores but this SB class is really making an impact on how friendly SB partners can be. :D Starbucks Rocks!

Hi, welcome to Starbucks, what can i get for you today Sir/Maam? *testing* Heh :p

Tomorrow is my Business Grooming day. Which means, i have to dress up for a meeting/interview. Hahaha, i swear it'll be a hell lot of fun day (:

Alright, Internet is down-still. So yeah, sorry for the lack of updates. BTT is coming real sooon!

Start your engine, Kin, Sally! Heh!

★FiR.

Lacking of Updates(!!)

My home internet is having a break from serving the net, which is a big bummer, i swear. In this period, i'll be somewhat mia from the blogger world, which leads to lack of updates and the frequent of blogging will be no longer as often as before. Sorry.

On a lighter note, i gave browse through the 400 pages of core training making coffee guide of Starbucks and tomorrow will be the actual training from 5-10, the following day too and Sunday. I'm pretty much excite about the training plus can't wait to get my hands on the coffee making things and the secret on the ingredients. I am really sure that today's post has a lot of grammar mistakes. I'm quite shagged in POA class now and later on, 2 hours of MDP. Argh! I need a break.

The course mates decided to head to KL, and their Zouk for the December Term Break, which is quite interesting, the only thing i'm worried, is the budget, we plan to go to dutch for the hotel booking. On the same line of travelling, i'm saving up money(!!!REALLY!!!) for 2009 big trip ever, Paris. Woah! Sounds pretty unbelievable? Hahahahah, no, i'm serious. I'm really saving up. We plan to go Paris, not with the course mates but the Superman and SuperMrConfident. Haha!

★FiR.